This is an old one I dug out of the bottom drawer a while ago. I'd never used it because I just couldn't bear the original monologue. So I'd whited it all out and left it. For a long time. That's why they have the dark eyelids I used to do. Looking at it now, I think I rather prefer the dark eyelids - they seem more expressive somehow, especially when they're narrowed into malevolent slits. I think the layout is an experiment that probably doesn't work too well in hindsight but I like the lotus.